The Last Post of The Year

Well,the year 2005 is finally ending.Phew.. it has been a mixed year for me more tilting towards bad than good.But am really glad i finally saw it through.

I was never a fan of celebrating newyear day  as such.Afterall its just a random point on the earth's rotational orbit around the sun(yeah i am an engineer ;)).But am surely going to celebrate this year.And with the year like this i must.

But not going on details,i must say,i learned a lot from this year.Its really amazing the things you could learn when your life is in mess and its even more amazing the confidence you get after fighting out of all those seemingly unending agony.

These are few things that life taught me this year:

1)Your family is your biggest Asset.
They are the people who would be with you when you really need someone.

2)All bad times end.
When you are down and sees no light,remember that time will somehow pass by to bring a better tomorrow.You just need to hang on

3)Never let a single mistake destroy your life.
If you make some bad choices in life,there is always time to correct it.If you let it ruin your life,then you are making a bigger mistake.

4)In the matter of heart and mind,don't waste time.
You will regret whatever decision you makes in that situation.So better make any logical choice and stand by it,with both your heart and mind.

5)When someone breaks your heart,It grows up double in size.
You are never out of love.If someone can't appreciate your love,move on.Don't waste something as precious as your love to someone who don't deserve it.

6)Marriage is the single most important decision of your life.
It is far more crucial decision than buying a car or a house or making your career(in which we spend so much time),so do invest a good amount of time in making that decision.

7)Nice things happens to nice people.
I know not many people would agree with me but i have always believed in this motto and once again life showed me the same.

8)A good sence of humour with a geniuine smile is the best quality you can have.
Have guts to laugh at yourself,and there will be nothing you can't do.Also smile at your biggest fear,it will dissappear like a chimera.

9)Last but probably the most important learning from last year is that always choose IceTea to ColdCofee when you go to CoffeeShack in the class Break.Its good for health with no caffeine,moreover your shirt will not get stain when it spills.

Cheers and Happy New Year to all of you.Signing off for the last time in year 2005.

My Life this week

Last week i went to attend one of my cousin's marriage. It was in a small village called takhatpur,with no internet and not even mobile working there.Was a really weird experience to be there for 4 days without hearing the tone of my mobile.

The groom besides being my cousin is also one of my close friend and so I attended the marriage as one of his Sarvalla(punjabi word for BestMan).And I must admit that I had a blast there. I got to meet so many of my old relatives but the best part was all the punjabi kudis present there for the marriage ;)

I also saw an entirely different side of india.Life at village is so much different from one that I live.Its a life with no pressure, no worries about all the senceless things that we do here,life with peace and specially life where your neighbours(by which i mean ur whole village) is like your family.

I also learned a very important lesson of life.My cousion who got married was not very educated.But he is one of the most amazing person i had known.He is so good in dealing with peoples,had a great sence of humour and most importantly one of the nicest heart.

On the other hand i also know a highly educated person(who was also present there),who is probably one of the worst person i know.Seeing both of them present there together really opened my eyes from one of my misconception.

I actually always wanted a highly educated girl as my soulmate.But there at that very moment i realized that its not the education but the heart that really matters.Ones happiness depends not on your IQ but you LQ(love quiotent)i.e. your ability to love everyone and to be happy even at the most desperate situation.

Only downside of the trip was that i had a small accident there and so now had to postpone my returning to mumbai for some more days.But then again i can enjoy the comfort of my home for some days more.So every dark cloud does have a silver lining :)

Marrying,for the sake of it!!!

Time : Around 7 pm
Location: Somewhere near the airport road.

Me and Rahul were roming around in my bike when his phone rang.He told someone in phone that he is comming there immediately and when he disconnected,i asked him,who was that?

He: "Ghar se phone tha,Ladki wale aye hai mujhe dekhne,jana hoga ghar."
Me(in shock): "Abe teri shadi ho rahi hai,bataya nahi tune."
He: "Hann yaar,ab umar bhi to ho gayi hai,yeh teesra rishta aaya hai"
Me: "To saal bhar mein tu bhi........"
He: "Nahi,agar pasand aa gayi to 1-2 mehine mein shadi ho jayegi"

I dropped him at his house and returned to mine.But that conversation with him left me cold.Also one of my couison is gettin married this sunday.He may be physically ready but i really doubt weather he is mentally prepared for this marriage.I mean he is such a prankster,always doing something naughty,now suddenly will have a wife to take care of.

He is of my age so is Rahul.So am i next?????

Frankly speaking,i am a big commitophobic.I am scared to death of commitments.I remembered my first proposal.After proposing to the girl,when i returned to my friend's house,I vomitted of fear.I am not kiddin,I actually vomitted and felt suffocated for more than 3 hours.I was afraid.But this fear was not that of rejection,I was afraid of a yes.This is perfect,the girl of my dream,beautyfull and intelligent,almost sure of saying yes,and i was afraid of what i would do if she says yes???Why did i proposed???How will i react if she wants to marry me???What sould I do now???These were the questions poping contineously in my mind.

And although i had changed a lot since then but still a bit sceptical about commiting,specially to a complete stranger.And then again I should be.

I mean should i get married just for the sake of getting married.Its really sad reality of indian society that marrige has become a sort of obligation rather that choice.The moment you hit a age of 23-24(even lower for girls),everyone starts seeing you differently and this continues till you are sacrificed.

This really is sad part of being an Indian.I was always of this thought that gettin married is one of the most important decision of life and this should be left to the person himself to decide the right time and partner.It should not be govern by the ideology that "everybody does that at this particular age,so you should also do the same".Every one has a different "Right Time" of commiting and this should be respected.

And as far as my right time is concerned,a friend once rightly said,"Don't worry,when the right time comes,you would automatically know".Yeah...... Whatever..... :)

2000 and still goin strong!!!!!!

Another Brick in the Wall???

Just a few days earlier i got my first sem result.I haven't checked it yet and didn't felt like doing it either.But a friend of mine informed me that i am getting 7.6 CPI in my first sem.Pretty good na specially when you compare it with the input i had put in(almost close to zero).

But then again it may be just about average score.And to be absolute honest,it made me worried for a while.I mean i had always been this happy go lucky kinda guy specially as far as exams are concerned but somehow always managed to be among the toppers of my class.But then i realized that i am in IIT,the college where the best of the best aspire to be with.

And moreover i may have became just another Brick in the Wall but i am definately of slightly different shade of orange,and intend to be that way,always.

My CostAcc Paper!!!

A case study without a case????



Thats cool. But just one doubt.

Where are the Fucking Cases??????

Bad choice for love.

I sit here everynight just writing,
never knowing where to go.
I stay here starring blankly,
theres nothing left for me to show.

I hear the music just float around,
screaming out in endless pains.
I'll write a song, so just you wait,
i'll write it for the played games.

I'll write for some reasons,
but not the ones before.
I write for some reasons,
I don't know what I'm writing for.

I saw a star,once fall above,
it was not that long ago.
I didn't wish,I didn't know,
I didn't want to see you go.

I want to show you to the world,
take you dancing and everywhere,
Kiss your cheek to say I need you,
make you happy when your in despair.

Hold you close when u need somebody,
and take your hand when we walk.
To cry with you when you are in pain,
and listen to you when you wanna talk.

I didn't expect you to see me,
The way my heart wanted you too.
But was I that difficult to be with?
Was it toomuch that i asked from you?

I should have seen it coming,
I should have known of what u'd do.
But i was blinded once again,
and only thought that u'd be true.

My friends said it would happen,
but i just refused to see.
I never thought it would come true,
and look what have you done to me.

It sucks cause you are not sorry,
for hurting me and what you said.
But then i have to tell my self
it was just a bad choice i made.

I'll find some one to love again,
someone really true and fair,
someone who would value my love,
some one who would always be there.